“She called herself an angel, & wandered the world from girlhood till death. She lived every kind of life & dreamt every kind of dream. She was wild in her wandering, a drop of free water. She believed only in her life, & only in her dreams. She called herself an angel, & her god was Beauty.” ― Roman Payne
Roman Payne describes a “wanderess" as a woman or girl who travels the world or her country in search of meaning or else engaging in artistic pursuits.
June 26th was the first day of my new life. Most Sundays I was in the habit of heading down to Old Muscle Beach in Santa Monica, California, to do Yoga at “The Green.” This particular Sunday I was feeling frustrated and overwhelmed, fed up with how I had allowed certain situations to unfold and progress. I had been doing a lot of complaining and hadn't been taking much action. I bumped into a friend who started telling me about a trip to Thailand he had coming up. When I made the comment, “I wish I could just quit my life and go do whatever I wanted for a while,” his response was, “Coming from a person who just did exactly that, I say go for it.”
Whoa. It had never occurred to me that it might just be that simple. So the next day I did just that: quit my life and asked myself what it was that I wanted to do.
Belize, Sayulita and Costa Rica were the top three places on my current bucket list. It didn’t make much sense to keep my expensive apartment in Venice Beach, California, while I traveled, so I gave my 30 day notice and began to pack up what I couldn’t sell. I moved my things into my sister’s apartment in Phoenix and bought plane tickets to the three places I knew I wanted to see first. I figured finding places to stay would be easy so I’d worry about that later.
Belize was first. When I googled “yoga resorts,” Royal Belize Resort popped up, so I jumped on my Instagram, found the resort’s account, sent them a DM asking if they offer any kind of work trade program for yoga instructors and within a few hours I received a response. A few days later I met with someone from the resort who coincidentally (I use that word loosely, there are no coincidences, everything happens just as it should) lived in Venice when he wasn't in Belize, and we booked my ten day “working vacation” at one of the sister properties in Placencia, Belize.
Next was Sayulita, Mexico. A girlfriend of mine that I had met while teaching at Red Diamond Yoga in Palms, California, had moved to Sayulita a few months before. I sent her a text, told her the dates I’d be visiting and asked if she could refer me to a good place to stay. She told me her landlord rented out the Casita next to hers and that she actually needed someone to watch her dog for her a few of the days that I would be visiting, so I could just stay in her place while she was gone and rent the Casita next door until then.
Costa Rica was the third trip I had booked. My ability to network might just have been my most valuable asset. Another girlfriend of mine that I had met through working with Daughters of Culture in Los Angeles (best brand ever!!!!) had recently moved with her husband to manage Nautilus Resort in Santa Teresa, Costa Rica. I told her when I was planning to visit, and I was able to work out another work trade deal with her and Nautilus resort.
I didn’t know very much about the three places that I had chosen, aside from just a feeling I was supposed to spend some time there. When I released the need to control and gave up the fear of not knowing (how I was going to make money, where I was going to stay, etc.) and just trusted, the universe seemed to make all the rest of my planning “easy.”
"Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present.” ― Jim Rohn
June 26th, 2016 was the day I decided to stop talking and start doing. I stopped merely dreaming that my life would change and started instead to live my dream. My whole life I had been working and saving. Talking about traveling and all the places I wanted to see and things I wanted to do. Living in places that didn’t make me happy, wasting my time complaining and bitching about how I wish this or that were different but not doing anything to actively bring about change. I read Michael Singer’s “Surrender Experiment” at the beginning of the year. The book presented the idea of how different our lives might be if we started saying yes more often and kept our minds open. Rather than saying yes to someone or something else, I decided to say yes to myself.
In the yoga world there is a lot of talk about how when you are on your path, the universe provides. When you worry about money, there is never enough, and attachment is what causes suffering. Nothing has ever felt more right than my decision to let go and go see. I’m not worried about money. Right now there seems to be plenty of it, and the more I travel, the more I realize all of my attachments and belongings are really just “baggage,” emotional and material. I don't need all the things I once thought I did to be happy: a fancy phone, access to Whole Foods, expensive beauty products and designer clothing. I’m learning that I'm happiest in a bikini, sitting on a beach eating fruit from a tree I passed walking down the street, and none of what I just described costs anything. Well, maybe the bikini (there are lots of nude beaches, though).
You know the saying, “Life is a bitch?” Well, it doesn't have to be. I don't want to be one of those ordinary people who says, "One day I will do this (and travel the world)." I want to have fun, I want to make the most of all of my moments. There is no perfect timing. So right now I am making the time for the things that are important to me. While most people waste a lifetime of creating dreams (and never realize them) I’m doing everything to fulfill my dreams presently. Change is good. It’s what brings about personal growth and expansion. I’m seeking beauty and a life of purpose. To give into fear is to become a victim of your mind.
As Wayne Dyer says, “Go for it now, the future is promised to no one.”
Written by Paige Rene. Outfit by @daughtersofculture